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Lumipas na ang lungkot ko. Mabisang gamot talaga ang panahon.

-Jeremy, YELLOW HANDKERCHIEF

PANAHON, yes, 1 year had passed this fast. Parang kahapon lang nung natanggap ko ang text niya na nagsasabing: CEZ, YOU DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER. Sa tuwing maiisip ko yun, nalulungkot ako, nasasaktan. Pero tama, mabisang gamot ang panahon. Nalulungkot parin ako pero hindi na kasing dalas ng dati, nasasaktan parin ako pero hindi na kasing sakit katulad noon. Baliw na kung baliw, but, I still dont believe him. Yung mga ipinagtapat niya sakin. In denial? Pwede rin. Pero no one can force me to believe things i dont want to. I'm not hoping though, na darating yung araw na mamahalin pa rin niya ako. Katulad nga ng sinabi ko, I've given him up a year ago, and now I'm ready to move on.

It takes time to forget and forever to get over it. The pain might fade away but the memory of the pain will remain in your heart.

-Mr. Servilleno Pacis

IT TAKES TIME TO FORGET, now that a year had passed, kakalimutan ko na lahat ng naramdaman ko, nararamdaman ko at mararamdaman ko for him. Susubukan ko.. Para narin naman sa akin ito eh. If I wont do it now, kelan pa? Kaya susubukan ko na NGAYON. FOREVER TO GET OVER IT. I might forget everything, pero hindi parin ako sure if i would get over those feelings. After all, lahat ng saya, lungkot, sakit, galit, kahunghangan, at kabaliwan na naramdaman ko habang minamahal ko siya eh naging part na ng buhay ko. i may deny it, but those feelings made me complete. I've experienced joy, sadness, anger, pain, love (for a moment, at least), and gladness that is different from what i normally feel with my family, thanks to him. But! THE MEMORY OF THE PAIN WILL REMAIN IN MY HEART forever.

Once you undergo a failed relationship, the pain is always left unaided. Everyone thinks you've moved on, but you'll later realize.. You never stopped loving him, you just learned how to live without him.

YOU NEVER STOPPED LOVING HIM.. Yeah, mahal ko parin siya. But i'm not feeling sad about it. why should i? Lagi kong sinasabi sa iba, when you chose to love, prepare to be hurt. Tama naman ako. Kasi magkakambal lagi yun eh (love and hurt). But i CHOSE not to be sad nor hurt. I want to feel happy about it. Not everyone gets the chance the feel the way I'm feelin' right now. Some are afraid. At kung maramdaman ko man ang sakit once in a while, that won't kill me right? LEARNED TO LIVE WITHOUT HIM, that i would surely do. Hey! For the past 15 years of my life, nabuhay ako ng wala siya. Kahit puro sakit at lungkot noon, kahit hindi ako marunong magmahal, nabuhay parin ako. And now I've learned how to love and be hurt, ngayon pa ba ako susuko? I can live another 15 years and more without him. I can be the person that i wanted to be, kahit wala siya sa tabi ko. Pero alam kong.. Patuloy ko parin siyang mamahalin.. Hangga't hindi pa ako nakakahanap ng taong mamahalin ko ulit..

The day I met you, i went home carrying a smile. You may be just an ordinary person to a lot of people, but for me, you're someone i'll cherish up to the end of my life.

THE DAY I MET YOU - that was last week of May, year 2003, nagtetext xa sa D LOUNGE and i got his number (or his cousin's). He introduced himself to me with his cousin's identity (who happens to be my bestfriend's friend now). Months later, i knew the real him. i was trully glad i knew him (totoo yun). YOU MAY BE AN ORDINARY PERSON TO A LOT OF PEOPLE (esp. to his DAD) but he has been an EXTRAORDINARY PERSON TO ME. He has changed me into a person i never thought i would be, he had hurt me like no other person can, he managed to touch my heart with his simple but irritable (and sometimes soothing) words, he made me smile during my loneliest days, he made me cry when in fact, i should be happy, he's been the brother i never had, the (boy) bestfriend i've longed for, the companion i always need.. in short, He has been a part of my life for the past 3 (happy, sad, hurtful, contented, anxious, blissful, bored, frustrated, curious, grieving, confident, envious, painful, puzzled and miserable) years kahit hindi ko pa xa personal na nkikilala . i know its foolish to some, that i have loved a person whom i barely knew and i ALMOST (but never) met, nevertheless, it wont change the fact that once in my life, I fell in love with a stranger.

I am writing all of these in response to the question once asked to me: TATANUNGIN KITA. KAKALIMUTAN MO NA DIN BA? (17-dEC-2005; 7:20 PM)

My answer is NO.. I am going to move on but i wont ever forget that guy. In fact, mamahalin ko parin siya (ang gulo ko noh?) in my own way. But this time, i wont be hurt. I am going to be in full control of myself, of my feelings, of everything that concerns ME. Hindi ko na uli hahayaang saktan ako ng ibang tao. And i wont blame other people for my faults.

IM SO GLAD I MET HIM BUT I HAVE TO MOVE ON.. continue with my life and fulfill my dreams.. Give my family a better life and eventually become the person i have always dreamt of.

-PRINCESS MAE CALIBOSO BERNABE

~*i hope you remember me as the girl who always smile even when her heart is broken and the one who could always brighten up your day, even if she couldn't brighten up her own*~

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i want him to forget my name, and all the things that includes me.. i dont know why.. but i think its better that way..

FORGET MY NAME
NEW FOUND GLORY



tell all my friends I'm dead

I'm leaving you, this time its for good

tell all my friends that I'm dead

it won't be long before you forget my name

can you tell

that I'm losing myself

I think I'm trying too hard

to let it show

to let you know

don't trace your footsteps back to me

I've been gone for a long time

waiting on the sidelines

hoping for a chance to play

well I thought I would never leave anything behind

I also never thought I'd say

tell all my friends I'm dead

I'm leaving you, this time its for good

tell all my friends that I'm dead

it won't be long before you forget my name

can you tell

that I don't know myself

I need someone to remind me

to let it go

please let me know

don't trace your footsteps back to me

cause I've been gone for a long time

waiting on the sidelines

hoping for a chance to play

well I thought I would never leave anything behind

I also never thought I'd say

tell all my friends I'm dead

I'm leaving you, this time its for good

tell all my friends that I'm dead

it won't be long before you forget my name

and if I had the chance

to do it all again

I wouldn't expect anything less

and if I had the chance

to do it all again

I wouldn't expect

I wouldn't expect anything less

tell all my friends I'm dead

I'm leaving you, this time its for good

tell all my friends that I'm dead

it won't be long before you forget my name

forget my name

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this means, i wont fall in love for now.. (syempre meron pa akong mahal) studies first, then my family, and my career..

GOODBYE TO LOVE
CARPENTERS



I'll say goodbye to love

No one ever cared if I should live or die

Time and time again the chance for love has

passed me by

And all I know of love is how to live without it

I just can't seem to find it

So I' ve made my mind up I must live my life alone

And thought it's not the easy way

I guees I' ve always known

I' d say goodbye to love

there are no tomorrows for this heart of mine

Surely time will lose these bitter memories

And I'll find that there is someone to believe in

And to live for

Something I could live for

All the years of useless search

Have finally reached an end

Loneliness and empty days will be my only friend

From this day love is forgotten

I'll go on as best I can

What lies in the future is a mystery to us all

No one can predict the well of fortune as it falls

there may come a time when I will see that I've been wrong

But for now this is my song

And it's goodbye to love

I'll say goodbye to love

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ahh.. hindi ko alam kung bakit ito nasama eh.. hehe..

FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY BROKEN HEART

BRITNEY SPEARS





"Never look back," we said

How was I to know I'd miss you so?

Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind

Where do I go?

And you didn't hear all my joy through my tears

All my hopes through my fears

Did you now, still I miss you somehow

CHORUS:

From the bottom of my broken heart

There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know

You were my first love, you were my true love

From the first kisses to the very last rose

From the bottom of my broken heart

Even though time may find me somebody new

You were my real love, I never knew love

'Til there was you

From the bottom of my broken heart

"Baby," I said, "please stay

Give our love a chance for one more day"

We could have worked things out

Taking time is what love's all about

But you put a dart

Through my dreams, through my heart

And I'm back where I started again

Never thought it would end

CHORUS

You promised yourself, but to somebody else,

And you made it so perfectly clear

Still I wish you were here

CHORUS

"Never look back," we said

How was I to know I'd miss you so?

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eto, cause finally, nagising na ako sa mga kabaliwan ko.. yes, hindi na ako naghihintay sa kanya ngayon.. not anymore.. i have lots of priorities in life para isipin pa sya.. at ang sarili ko.. hehehe..

ALL AT ONCE
WHITNEY HOUSTON



All at once

I finally took a moment

And I'm realizing that

You're not coming back

And it's finally hit me all at once

All at once
I've started counting teardrops

And at least a million fell

My eyes began to swell

And all my dreams were shattered all at once

Ever since I met you

You're the only love I've known

And I can't forget you

Though I must face it all alone

Chorus:

All at once I'm drifting on a lonely sea

Wishing you'd come back to me

And that's all that matters now

All at once I'm drifting on a lonely sea

Holding on to memories

And it's hurt me more than you know

So much more than it shows

All at once

I looked around and found that you were

With another love

In someone else's arms

And all my dreams were shattered all at once

All at once the smile that used to greet me

Brightened someone else's day

She took your smile away

And left me with just memories all at once

Ever since I met you

You're the only love I've known

And I can't forget you

Though I must face it all alone

Repeat Chorus (2X)

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obvious ba? talagang kasama to.. lalo na yung sa huli =i love him but only on my own=

nice!

ON MY OWN
LEA SALONGA



And now Im all alone again

no where to turn no one to go to

Without a home without a friend without a face to say hello to

And now the night is near

now I can make believe he's here

Sometimes I walk alone at night when everybody

else is sleeping

I think of him and then I'm happy with

the company I'm keeping

The city goes to bed

And I can live inside my head

On my own,

Pretending he's beside me,

All alone, I walk with him till morning.

Without him, I feel his arms around me,

And when I lose my way, I close my eyes,

And he has found me...

In the rain,

The pavement shines like silver,

All the lights are misty in the river,

In the darkness the trees are full of starlight,

And all I see is him and me,

Forever and forever...

And I know it's only in my mind,

That I'm talking to myself and not to him,

And although I know that he is blind,

Still I say, there's a way for us...

I love him,

But when the night is over,

He is gone, the river's just a river

Without him the world around me changes,

The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers.

I love him,

But everyday I'm learning,

All my life,

I've only been pretending,

Without me,

His world will go on turning,

A world that's full of happiness,

That I have never known...

I love him... I love him...

I love him... But only on my own...

~iassec_1217_cessai~